I never thought I would say this, but I’m having an emo moment right now.
A sudden realisation brought a wash of thoughts into my mind. It mocks me.
“You are not good enough, talented enough, smart enough, rich enough, friendly enough, caring enough and desirable enough.
You are unoriginal, lazy, lonely, emotional, broke, selfish and unwanted.
What have you done to yourself?
What have you become?”
I know some people reading this may think “God, don’t be such a drama queen. You’re overreacting.” Haven’t you had a time when suddenly, you start to doubt everything about yourself? Everything you’ve ever done?
Sometimes I feel as if I were to disappear from the face of this earth (more realistically, never come online, throw my phone away and lock myself in my room) nobody would even realise. I may cynical but I know it.
The question now is, what do I do about it? What do I do about the problems that are bothering me? How do I become better, more talented, richer, smarter, more original, friendlier, more desirable? How? HOW? I feel like I’m stuck between the second third and fourth level of Maslow’s hierarchy, not being able to reach the fifth and final level.
Maybe my period is coming soon. ROAR.
Gosh, if only I can blame my emotional rollercoasters on periods as well…tat would be nice
Hey babe, don’t worry. Absolutely normal have these sorta insecurities. I think we all do
That being said, I seriously think that your work’s good enough to be pitched to the local publications based in KL.
You can do eeeeeettttt! ;p
If everyone was as talented as you and was nearly as successful as you are even on those cynical moments, we’d all be rich and famous. From one soon-to-be starving artist to another probably-not-starving-anymore artist, really love your works. Super inspiring. Hope to meet you sometime somewhere in the near future. = )