The End Of Another Chapter

Or is it? You leave me so terribly confused and unsure of what I should do or how I should feel right now. What should I feel beside this big question mark I see in front of me?

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Are you going to let go? Can you really?

My New Home

Some have asked to see my new studio apartment but I didn’t think of putting it up in public. I love the place so much that I can’t wait to show it off! I don’t have any ‘before’ photos of the apartment prior to dropping a bomb buying all the basics and some extras so these photos will have to do. The finishings are quite simple and basic but I’m hoping to get a few more things to ‘home-y’ it up a little more.

First impressions from the front door.

My lovely new clean kitchen and loving my bar stool (necessary to satisfy my ‘bar habits’).

Tiny dining space for two. I absolutely adore that little plant and floral arrangement, I need more of it (hint hint).

Living area and workspace, featuring a glossy new 24″ iMac and the amazing Alesis M1 monitor speakers.

Last but not least and definitely my favourite, The Room.  Also, awesome night view outside my window.

I did have some assistance from dear mother with moving in and shopping for all my items so that was a big help. Thank you mother (yes, she does read my blog). I still have this huge space at the start of the apartment that I need to fill up with furnishing. It’s so empty that my voice echoes in that area. I really like the fact that I have so much space which I can also easily convert into my shooting areas. Apparently my bathroom is so big it can fit a whole family into the shower area, not that I tried of course.

I would love to have people come over for some company since it can get rather boring staying in the apartment by myself all the time. You are also welcome to bring the following as housewarming gifts hehehehe:

• Flower arrangements or shrubs

• Rugs and placemats

• Wine and champagne glasses

• Art pieces or large canvas prints

• Candles and holders

• Throw pillows

• Let’s not forget the ‘Hard Stuff’ (liquids).

Come visit soon because I also have an amazing poolside <3 <3 <3

Where Am I Now?

I’ve been busy packing, relocating, buying, arranging, IKEA-ing.

Hello Kuala Lumpur, my base for the next year and until then who knows what?

More later, am getting lazy updating this blog again. Noooooo.

Plagiarism & Copyright Infringement

Update: The lovely editor Jonathan Bong quickly called me up after receiving my email and explained to me what really happened. We came to agree on a settlement which both of us are quite pleased with. I won’t say what it is here, but the only hint is that you have to watch this space. I’m appeased at the fact that the issue was solved so quickly and painlessly.

Also, big thanks to everyone who showed their concern and opinions over the issue. XX

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Original Post: This is appalling. I’ve just found out that an image I took in 2007 is being used to advertise the ‘Shenanigans 2009 Most Eligible Bachelor Contest’ in Breeze magazine! Observe:

Above: The original image taken of Jeffrey Tanggau sometime in 2007.

Above: The page used to advertise Shenanigans and the image concerned.

To make matters worse, they’ve even re-edited the photo and (gasp) enlarged Jeffrey’s eyes! Major ouch to all parties involved. I’m not sure if anybody (and by anybody I mean the editor, designer, Shenanigans or Jeffrey) is aware that the imaged used for the advertisement is now considered ‘stolen‘.

I also wonder if re-editing the image is their way to differentiate it from the original image but it can obviously be seen that it is the same photo.

I’ve just sent out an email to everybody who might be involved and I’m waiting to receive a proper reply. This will not go down without a proper settlement (to those who aren’t in the know or aren’t from Kota Kinabalu, Shenanigans is a popular pub in Hyatt Hotel). Hell, it’s plagiarism for goodness’ sake!

The issue that is really pissing me off is that the image is being used for profit making without my approval or acknowledgement. Rightfully they have to buy the use of the image or at least get my permission to print it.

I’ve always heard of people complaining about their images being stolen and used for advertising or profit making situations but never did I imagine it happening to me.

I mean, everybody knows that plagiarism is wrong. And what’s worse, to plagiarise the work of a starving artist. That really takes the cake.

Epic.

Let Me Overreact

I never thought I would say this, but I’m having an emo moment right now.

A sudden realisation brought a wash of thoughts into my mind. It mocks me.

“You are not good enough, talented enough, smart enough, rich enough, friendly enough, caring enough and desirable enough.

You are unoriginal, lazy, lonely, emotional, broke, selfish and unwanted.

What have you done to yourself?

What have you become?”

I know some people reading this may think “God, don’t be such a drama queen. You’re overreacting.” Haven’t you had a time when suddenly, you start to doubt everything about yourself? Everything you’ve ever done?

Sometimes I feel as if I were to disappear from the face of this earth (more realistically, never come online, throw my phone away and lock myself in my room) nobody would even realise. I may cynical but I know it.

The question now is, what do I do about it? What do I do about the problems that are bothering me? How do I become better, more talented, richer, smarter, more original, friendlier, more desirable? How? HOW? I feel like I’m stuck between the second third and fourth level of Maslow’s hierarchy, not being able to reach the fifth and final level.

Maybe my period is coming soon. ROAR.